Oct 16 2008
On my 34th Birthday…
Happy birthday to me… happy birthday to me… happy birthday, happy birthdayyyy… happy birthday to me. I’ll be turning 34 on saturday, a year older a year… a year… another year.
I am at the lowest point in my life, and funny whenever I felt I was at my loneliest moment that I have this urged to write how I feel. As my hubby would tell me over and over again “Mahal, why do you feel great whenever you write your grudges and pains?” And it made me realize that all my writtings were about how i fail, how hurt i was blah… blah… blah, as he always told me pang “Teleserye”. I’ll constantly tell him that there are moments in my life that i cannot express how I feel and it is thru my writings that I stumble upon the right words to equate my innermost feelings. Well, I am not I used to be. I feel worthless. It is because of my children that I still manage to be sane. There are things that I value in my life my children, my family and my husband…
Talking about my better half, I hope he knows how much i love him. That he is my life. That I regretted the times that I’ve been so hard on him. But sometimes I have to be firm, for just one look from him melts my heart. We lost the spark and all the glitters we hardly talk about anything and everything under the sun. I miss our times together way back, he misses me and i miss him too. Deep in my heart he’s still the one. I still believe that the love needs to be rekindled… But how? who will make the move? I hardly have enough sleep, i was thinking what went wrong? We use to be the best buddies in everything. We use to be the all for 1, 1 for all mate. We use to be so in love that we only have eyes for each other. We use to be the “ONE” for each other. And it was all gone… We need space, to rethink and reflect… I just hope that the space that we have created between us, be filled with our memories to bridge the gap that was about to ruin our lives… someday, somehow I know there is hope… it’s the only thing left to hold on to… On my 34th bday i’ll blow my imaginary cake and wish that everything will be alright. I believe… I need to start believing again… you heard it right God, help me please… show me the way…
Happy Birthday to me…
6 responses so far
Happy birthday Len! And I wish and pray that your prayers be heard
Maligayang bati, pinsan. Sending positive vibes, love & hope your way. . .
thanks for finding time to read my blog… thanks for the greetings but i desperately need cash! hahahaha… or another job i guess… thanks and God bless!
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hehe.. who says married life is as easy as picking your nose? I don’t believe in “perfect combination” that’s why i don’t sing that song. haha! Don’t get me wrong.. all of us are different (God created us as one unique and special individuals) there’s a lot of things we discover after saying “i do”. And for me, that’s also the “secret formula” bwahahaha!! just kidding aside.. seriously, what i mean is… you cannot make your partner to be your “knight in shining armour” or your perfect “venus” we must accept our partner for what they really are. One thing i learned about this little thing called “love” is.. I never go tired of saying sweet nothing to my wife.. do simple things that will make them laugh and above all, with God in the middle of our relationship. Anyways.. just drop by to visit and read your blogs. No kidding nakakalibang basahin! specially about your biyenan. Kamukha ni Caloy mother nya. Ba’t ka ba nag fine arts? hahaha.. More power sa career! Musta kay Caloy!!
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